Ya know, I've had success with my lists. My first list saw my husband miraculously appear. I haven't mentioned here before but my hubby and I wrote a list after we'd been married for a few months, a list of things we wished for. That list only had a few things on it, materialistic things. And again I tossed the list in a drawer and forgot about it. On that list were - a nice new four bedroom house with a double garage (how on earth were we ever going to get that?), new furniture for our new home (well you can't have a nice new home with old daggy furniture in it), and a small business of our own so that we could have weekends off together (yeah right).
I found that list the other day. And had another 'ohmygod I forgot about this list' moment. Because last year we moved into our new home, and while it's not brand new it was only 18 months old when we bought it so it's quite the modern thing, has a double garage, and we did furnish it all with lovely new furniture, sold or threw out all the old furniture, and right now we are in the process of selling our small business to move on to something else after hubby has a good rest first (and after we go to my daughter's wedding in Vegas).
Not only that, we OWN our new home. No mortgage, no debts. Something I thought I'd never achieve to be honest. Miraculous it is indeed.
How that all came to be is rather a lengthy story with many twists and turns, but the thing is that it all came to be over about, well, less than 8 months after writing that list and forgetting about it. Crazy. I honestly don't know how these things come to be, all we/I do is write a list. Is it the power of suggestion or something? I don't know!! But it's like I put in my order, and without me even realising, there it is!
Have to admit I am grateful for these things, and I do say thank you, not to anyone or anything in particular, but I know I have looked heavenwards and said thank you, quite a few times. Ok I'm a kook. But I have those moments, and it seems only right to be thankful. 'The Secret' told me to do that, to be grateful, so I guess it sunk in.
Now, and I realise I must seem greedy, there are some things I'd still like. Like my own car. We have two, one is hubby's and its just too big for me to drive, the other is the business car which is more my size but it's getting sold with the business (shame, I was hoping I could have it haha). And I'd like new carpet or flooring in the house, when we bought the house we got it cheap because it had been rented out, and needed a lot of cleaning up, and while its been all cleaned up now the carpet really never quite came back to perfect condition. So greedy me wants all new flooring. And some landscaping in the back yard, it is tiered but needs some finishing off.
Awful aren't I. I've been so lucky, and I want more. Then again I sometimes feel 'second rate' because I don't have my own car, is that wrong of me? Hard to explain, but I do feel that way. And having a 'disability' makes me feel second rate too sometimes, it never used to, I was always comfortable in my own skin and actually quite proud of myself, and my determination not to let it stop me doing anything, until I went through the hell of suffering disability discrimination and that had me feeling less than worthy, of anything much. I've come through all that, but still have my moments, like yesterday in that awful blistering heat, I wished I had a car. But no, there I was sitting at a bus stop in the stinking heat, like someone nobody cared about, you know? Erk. That's not me, I am loved and I know that, it was just circumstances but I find myself thinking, why can't I have a freakin car???!! We dont have anywhere to put it is the answer, plus I'm a good little wife and hubby says we need to save for retirement, really I could use his car during the day (I just don't like big cars!). Oh well, it's on my list now, a small car!
I'm a lucky woman, nothing to complain about at all really, just reaching for absolutely everything I guess! So I think this blog/post can serve as my list, actually no, I will write it down and toss it in a drawer somewhere - really shouldn't change what's been working - that's all for now, I'm off to write my list!
You've inspired me. I think I'll write one too. I'll have to think long and hard on what I want. Some of it I don't want just yet. Maybe to just have enough money when I needed it to finish school. For later, A piano. I just don't have room for one yet. A house yes, but after school. I like my cheep little one for now. hmmm. well, I'll go write it out i guess. And then hide in my closet.
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