The miracle cometh ...

We woke the next morning and as usual we were chatting away.  Nice things, about how happy we were to have met each other, how we'd both given up really before that.  He'd been nagged into going on the dating website, by his daughter.  I'd just given it a shot, was looking for company.  And in no time we met, emails & phone calls for a week or so, then in person and after just one week we'd done the 'I love you' thing.  Well and truly.  We were head over heels, and that's the first time I'd ever felt confident enough to say a man loved me.  He did and I knew it.  I could say so loud and proud.  I loved him and incredibly he loved me and he wasn't afraid to say so, to anyone.

Nothing mattered.  I didn't really know much about him to be honest.  I'd been to his house, he'd been to mine.  I didn't know if he had a mortgage or was renting.  Didn't care really.  I knew he had a job and that was about it.  I knew he was a good man.  Told me about his past.  I told him about mine.  The past is the past and we both agreed on that, everyone makes mistakes, probably has done things they feel bad about.  But its the past.  Now is now.

And so we were talking.  And he was saying things like "I think when you reach a certain age and youve had relationships before, you learn, and then when you find what you want, you know it".  I'm thinking yeah, true, nice of you to say.  I felt the same, he was 'the one', I never thought he existed but there he was and he loved me.  Pretty darn amazing.

Ok I know this is mushy and probably getting boring.  Sorry.  Thing is, next he said "Sooo, hypothetically, if I was to ask you to marry me what would you say?"

Leading up to this, as he was talking I was thinking it sounded very much like he was heading to a marriage proposal, but of course I doubted that.  We'd only met a week ago.  He'd be mad to do that.  I was dreaming, I told myself.

But there it was.  Hypothetically.  And I'm thinking my God I love this man!  Talk about the answer to my dreams.  But hypothetically?  So I answered "Hypothetically, I'd say yes". 

Hypothetically.  Now I was in a bit of shock.  This was like some movie.  It couldn't be real.  But my head was spinning.  And I thought, really, I can't let him just ask me hypothetically to marry him.  Here was my chance, marriage, I wanted to be his Mrs.  I really really did.

So in all of about 4 seconds I took the hugest leap of my life, and said "So ask me!".   Now I thought here's his chance to say 'well I was just talking hypothetically', or worse he'd laugh, or start to stutter and get all embarrassed trying to wriggle out of it.  But I had to ask.

And he sat up straight, turned towards me, looked me in the eye and said "Will you marry me?"  Ok this has to be a dream I'm  thinking.  Not willing to take any more chances, I didn't care if somehow I'd been beamed off to some other parallel universe,  and  I said 'Yes'.  Followed quickly by my dumbest question ever "Are you serious?", which he answered with a smile and "Yes" - thank heavens.

I won't go into all the wedding plans, the ring buying or any of that.  It all happened.

The other thing that happened was "The Secret".  Remember my list?  Well I had to start packing to move out of my home and into his.  And I came across my 'perfect man' list.  Oh my goodness, I'd forgotten all about that!

And I read it through, remembering how I thought 'this will never happen' as I was writing it.  And every single point on that list I gave a resounding 'tick!" to. 

The one absolutely amazing thing that I'd written on that list was the final sentence.  Now I was definitely crazy at the time.  Insane.

At the bottom of the page I'd written ... "I will meet and marry this man within the next 12 months".  I remember 'knowing' that just wasn't going to happen.  How could it?  12 months, meet, marry, ridiculous.

But, we met and were married within the next six months.

Miracle.

Miracle No. 1 to be precise.

Before I go on, I just want to say right here and now, I am blessed, and I know it.  And I am grateful for all my blessings, my children, my family, my wonderful husband, the fact that I have MS and am still on my feet.  Blessings every one.

You can think I'm screwy if you like, but believe me for a woman with MS, over 50 years of age, to meet and marry the most decent man she'd ever come across, there's something going on that's bigger than we know.  What it is I cannot say, but I now know it's there.  Call it what you like, God, the universe, the secret - put it out there, do something about getting it, take one small step towards it and its yours.  Simple really!  Don't let the chances go by, be aware, be open to opportunities and grab them.  Ok that's my lecture for today.

No more sermons from me, but if you're still interested stay tuned for what happens next ...